who doesn't love sunday...sorry jen...

i know it is thursday night, but i had to write a little about the feelings i had this past sunday. it was our stake conference this past weekend and i would say it was a lot on the "missionary" theme. i came away with two thoughts shouting in my mind. (i think it is interesting though, that it took me hearing these things twice before they sunk deep within me)

first; was something i had heard the week before in my own sacrament meeting, because the same girl spoke two weeks in a row. it was michelle, the girl that keri had the shower for. anyway, her comment was this, "what are you HOLDING ON TO, that makes you unable to boldly share your testimony?" i think i have shared on my blog before how i am the poster child of anxiety about trying to talk with someone about the church. i have pondered this a lot this week.

second; satuday evening a recent convert was talking about his feelings as he held the book of mormon in his hands and he realized he was holding God's words and that he was able to read God's words, and how sincere and grateful he was to know that God still talks to His children. sunday as president schlauder referred to the power of this young man's sincerity as he spoke of the amazement he felt about the book of mormon, i realized i really take that great book for granted. how can i go one day without reading from its pages? that has been on my mind a lot this week as well.

i suppose why this particular sunday was memorable was, immediately following conference and a quick sandwich i jumped in the car to go to salt lake, alone. notice the word ALONE. i can't remember the last time i took a road trip by myself. it is very possible it was when i was in college! it is very different to travel alone. you get to listen to the music you choose, you don't have to settle any arguments, no one is complaining at you, and you can think...just think for five hours! trips are also shorter when you are by yourself:) anyway, there is something to be said for pondering. i loved listening to jon's sunday favorites list four different times as i traveled! it set the mood for some wonderful feelings and some soul searching. i could say i have felt like i have been a little in the valley lately as far as my spiritual growth is concerned. it was so wonderful to have this time to think about what i can change and how i can do and be better. thanks tod, for giving me a reason to make the trip and remember why i love sundays. jen, maybe when bridger is twelve you'll get to take a road trip alone and sunday will feel a little different again:)